hate my life I woke up today and I had reached my lowest weight since summer 136,4 lbs but then I ate and ate and ATE and now at 11 im 139 pfffffffffffff
i dont want this anymore I hate bein so fuckin fat i hate myself and everythin on my body I hate my life and everythin I do I hate dont bein able to have control and finally DO WHAT I WANT:/
my brothers gf s here oh god shes like SOOOO skinny and I really love her but Im so jealous of her...
but I dnt really think that noone gorgeous will ever fall in love with me because im so fuckin fat
yesterday i didnt eat anythin though but im still unable to keep control of my eatin and stop bingeing
I need to reload my veggies and fruits because were done and finally STAY AWAY FROM FOOD
i dont get a grip unless ive got sth in my mouth ffffffff
cw139
lw127
gw1  130
gw2  125
fgw   114


ohh god Ive got to make it I WILL MAKE IT!
Ive got to be the best me and I WILL!
noone will ever insult me again about my body Ill be "the beautiful thin one"
:(


p.s. my height is 5'7''